Why ask why?

As I sat down to write my new post, my mind went blank. 'Must be some kind of real sick joke,' I think to myself. How can I really have nothing to say. I wait a little longer. Slowly, I start to chew on my half-painted fingernails-obviously needing some kind of attention other then an annoying nervous habit. Still nothing. With Taylor swift singing in the background, I think to myselft, 'wow, how amazing would that be? I want to be her!!' Soon after, I catch myself laughing out loud, no, no i don't want to be her ha ha. Got me thinking though:)

Today, a friend and I had quite the conversation, using words to paint beautiful pictures of how are lives COULD be. "If we weren't in nursing school ...," "If I had money to do whatever I wanted...," "After I get my R.N. ...." Harmless to say, but slightly discouraging to think about.

What if??

The imperfect human in each of us makes us ask "why?" If we were perfect we would know why. We would know why life is sometimes hard. We would know why life doesn't always go as planned. But, most importantly, we would know why life must be this way for us to learn and grow. Because what is life without these? It is not life at all as we know it.

SO... Why can't we stand up for right and wrong? Why can't we fight for those things we know to be real and true? Why can't we feel safe in our own homes, grocery stores, or walking down the street? Why can't a child go through life without ridicule? Why can't a politician tell the whole truth? Why can't a promise always be kept? Why can't we get everything we want? Why can't wishes come true? Why can't all daddy's/mommy's never leave? Why can't we all live to be 100 years old? Why can't we all be healthy? Why can't we all live in a free country? Why can't we all choose right rather than wrong? Why can't we all have food to eat, a roof over our heads, and people who love us? Why can't we all have the opportunity for education? Why can't the world be at peace? Why can't everyone be happy? Why can't everyone have the security of a job?

Why can't we smile at a stranger? Why can't we be fearless? Why can't our childhood innonce stay with us?Why can't we just have faith? Why can't we believe that there is someone up there looking after us and carefully watching our every move? Why can't we remember that He hurts when we hurt, rejoices when we rejoice? Why can't we want to feel Him in our hearts? Why can't we count our blessings? Why can't we be thankful the other 363 days of the year(minus thanksgiving and christmas day)? Why can't we trust our family and friends? Why can't we say please and thank you? Why can't we be respectful and polite to everyone and everything?

Why??
...If only we didn't have to ask why.

Officially back to school...

So yes, two posts in one day. Each fairly deserving it's spot, and plus .. i'm lazy. If I kept up with these kinds of things I would not have two posts in one day but, oh well. I am back to school.

I know sometimes I definitely complain a lot about being back in school, but it's there that everything falls into place. I have the most amazing friends I get to spend all day with and I am learning and growing in every way possible. Yes, I admit, lectures are pretty dry sometimes, filled with who knows what for reasons who knows why but it's great. Hard to get back into the groove of actually having to pay attention but I am getting there, slowly. Good news- I wrote notes all day... okay so they don't always pertain to anything even close to what's being taught, but really can you blame me? Okay so maybe I'm slightly A.D.D., at least I'm not sleeping like half of my class:)

Crazy to think I've already made it to block III!! Only one more block after this, insane! I'm so glad I didn't quit last semester, because I really wanted to.. several times!! Whoever thought nursing school was hard? HA HA.

So anyways.. guess I will see you all in May because pretty sure I will be studying, or studying, or... possibly hiking:) (love you mimz!)

oh ps for those who know I am trying to drop my winter warmth, i've lost a total of 8 inches:) pretty excited about it!! It's been two and a half weeks, and I know it's not much but I enjoy it. Hooray for the SB's!! Love!

Nursing gals(ALS, jackie, mimz, and cleavis AKA me, anna, lindsay, and briley brown)

Backrow gals:)

SCG 4ever!! I will miss you Baby Kim!!

Through the economic changes and life's ever-growing need to change and push us along to bigger and better things.. whether we like it or not.. several people I have grown to know and love have left SCG. For those who don't know, SCG aka Scottsdale Children's Group is the place I have worked for the last couple of years. A doctor's office full of girls and estrogen ha ha but surprisingly I love every last one of them!! Baby Kim was our last fallen soldier, baby kim because we had another kimmi:)

Anyways, miss Baby Kim I will miss you very much! But I sure look forward to your fun facts every Tuesday just like last semester! I wish you all of the best back to school and hope our lives cross again! LOVE!!

nursing friends!!

so.., not to mention any names.. (cough)miss briley brown.. but i finally got disneyland pics from freaking april!(?).. It's tradition after every semester for us friends to take a trip together. First semester it was Disneyland, second semester it was the cabin.. except only 3 of us girls went.. but we had fun without them!! so here are some favorite moments from both..

A New Year, Workin on a New Me

Funny thing.. whenever I ask people at work how they are or how things are going they always say "oh, its going". I never really understood why they said it rather than "good" or "not too bad", but finally the day has come when I know EXACTLY how they feel.

This year so far is going.. going and going...

About to start back at school soon and I am super excited:) Quite possibly a little nervous though :/ I just know how hard it's been in the past and so I'm not really sure how much I will love this next semester. One reason I am dying to go back to school for is to see my girls!! I miss you guys so much! .. oh... and Addy, miss you too:) I am so blessed with such amazing classmates and outstanding friends! I would have dropped out and probly died 3 times over without them!!

I have so much to be greatful for so I have no idea why I feel like I'm dragging.. possibly my new diet plan.. I feel like all I eat is carrots and apples and water ha ha not really but for reals a girl has got to eat! For those who don't know, at work we are doing our own little "biggest loser" thing and I eagerly signed up to drop my extra holiday/nursing student pounds. The whole point is to lose the weight healthily(not sure if that is even a real word) and keep the weight off. So we started 1/5 and I have lost 4 pounds, pretty proud possum over here:) It's really not about the weight for me, just about how it fits on me ha ha but it is nice to see a measurable result and to feel it, too.

Hopefully things will start to get back on track with school starting up, getting into shape and seeing my friends again- putting my focus towards something positive and motivating.

As you can see, I still haven't uploaded any photos recently, my B. I will get on it soon.. possibly..

Love!

The Holidays...

I hope everyone had great holidays! I know I did! Christmas, for a really long time has not been about the presents, its just a time at the end of each year to take a look at my life and realize all I have to be greatful for.
This past year I have had so many wonderful things to be greatful for... the opportunity to go to school, new/old friends, new/old family, amazing vacations, SYTYCD live tour!!, a great job, .. la dee da so much to be grateful for! Christmas eve was so fun we rocked pizza and poker! Christmas morning was a bit different this year, my little brother was gone and he is the reason I love Christmas morning. He wakes up super early and separates everyone's presents and wakes us all up and we have a blast. This year with him gone we all rolled out of bed around 8 or so and opened presents and at breakfast yum:) ...
New years eve was actually a hit this year, went to F1 raceway and danced the night away with briley brown:) and a million other people it was amazing! Then dropped by a waffle party then watched baby mama gotta love it!
Being off school I have just been working as much as I can to try and save some money for the upcoming semester.. prolly spending a little too much of it but hey you only live once. Am I right? Ha ha.
Well sorry I don't think I took any pics this whole holiday season.. crappy crappy.. I will try and remember to take pics to show. love!