NEPHEWS!!

I LOVE MY NEPHEWS!! WE HAD A SLEEPOVER AND WENT TO THE ZOO:) (ok the zoo was for a charity walk for Autism for work, but hey it was a blast!) .. oh and i'm back blonde:)

Update.

Well, now seems as good a time as any to update the world on me. For quite some time I feel like I have been in my own world not noticing anything outside of it. Recently someone said to me, "I feel like you feel off the face of the earth Lex, what happened to you?!" That's a very good question, I thought. Hm... what have I done since i graduated high school and what do I have to show for it? Most people would assume a quick and easy answer "not much." I beg to differ.

Did I finish college? No. Did I move away to find myself? No. Did I move away to find my soulmate? No. Do I have a high paying job that I just can't wait to show up to every day? No. Buuuuuuuuttt.... Have I experienced life? Yes. Have I found love and lost it? Yes. Have I figured out who I am and want to be? Mostly.

I could go on and on about what have learned these last 4 years, yes, count them, 4 years since I graduated from high school. I have matured in ways I never imagined and I am actually happy. I can honestly take a look at my life and have no regrets.


I would like to apologize to all of those I have lost contact with over the years. I know it may sound selfish, but I needed to do it. I needed to start with a clean fresh slate and allow myself to make it through this world alone. If I had stayed in the life I came from, surrounded by the same people, I never would have grown to love myself, trust myself, or believe in myself because everyone always did it for me. I mean no offense to anyone who was a part of my life, I just needed these things and the only way I could achieve them for myself was to start with nothing. I needed to know that I don't necessarily always NEED people around but I WANT people around.

Unfortunately, I have lost contact with so many of those people and so I wonder if I made the right decision? But thinking about it, I know I made the right decision. How could I truly love someone else if I didn't love myself? How could I trust someone else if I didn't even trust myself? Or how could I support and/or believe in someone else when I didn't believe in myself?

Life is full of decisions... Some are best for ourselves and may hurt those around us and some visa versa. I'm so sorry to those that I have hurt and hope that you might forgive me and be my friend. I would hope that those that know me best know that I would never purposefully hurt someone and believe that I only intended for the best outcome possible.


I hope everyone has found the time to work on the important things and not just the ones for show. Please feel free to contact me and fill me in on all of your lives...I will write again soon. Love.